Wow, it’s the first day of October. Can you believe it? It will be Christmas before you know it, and I shiver at the thought! Life has been crazy lately but this week has just been insane.

Weirdly enough, I woke up in a good mood on Monday morning having rested over the weekend and actually accomplished some things on my to-do list thus not feeling like a total loser and slacker like I normally do on Monday mornings. But by noon time my mood has soured.

Monday was an irritable day. I saw something online that irritated me. Well, I don’t know that irritated is the right word when you see a picture of your husband and an ex-girlfriend on his site. I think it was more of being a little bit hurt. Oh I know I have nothing to worry about. I have complete faith in his love for me and he probably didn’t mean anything by posting the photo of them together when there is not one photo of his wife anywhere. STOP… I’m starting to get snarky again. But that’s done. If I don’t think about it, it will eventually go away or I’ll get mad at him for no reason at all some days or weeks down the line and neither one of us will know where it came from. LOL!

Tuesday came around and again I woke up with high hopes for a better day. But it just got worst by the time I opened my gmail. I received really disturbing photos of a beloved aunt who has been sick for some time. She suffered and survived a brain aneurysm a few months ago but this left her bedridden and practically unresponsive. They took her home with no hope of meaningful recovery. We all knew this, but with us being here in the U.S. and her in the Philippines, we or rather I didn’t really comprehend the severity of her situation.

You know how they say pictures speak louder than words? I think that is what happened on Tuesday. Seeing her emaciated with the dead look in her eyes just got to me. Now I am not usually a very emotional person, but this just hit me so hard, this visual of her suffering, that I had to step out for a good cry. Actually, I drove home to get a hug from my husband. I needed something solid to hold on to.

My reaction was a little over the top and I think there’s more to it than just seeing an aunt in such a bad state. I think that it was a combination of a number of things that I had put away in that back room in my mind.

By the time Wednesday came around, I was drained. Exhausted emotionally and physically. Fatigue overcame me and I just had to stop and do nothing. That was yesterday.

Today, it’s the first day of another month. The temperature has cooled and sun is shining. Unfortunately, the bad news just keep on coming. Swine flu is in our office officially. My co-worker whose office is directly across from mine just received a confirmed diagnosis that she has the swine flu. He father also passed away last night and another co-worker’s wife just delivered their first baby who was born with congenital defects. So it’s a somber mood here at the office this morning and I’m wishing it’s the weekend already but it’s only Thursday.

Tomorrow, is Friday but I’m going to see my doctor and you know how that is. Every time you go see a doctor, it’s never good news. Well not for me anyway.

I really need some good news to pick me up. You got any?

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